Where do they lie the ruling heart...

This poem comes from my son, Deepak:

Wer do thy lie the ruling heart!
To the wanted love it must see,
Or to the wanted dreams it longs to be
Courage it has shown in the darkest of life,
Fighting and swaying yet marching to thy end of land,
Touching those who havnt been touched,
Taking those who have been along,

Wer do thy lie the ruling heart!
To see the unseen yet unsee the seen ,
Taking roads which havnt been
Making trails for the ones behind,
For it is them who can stay wen the sun is gone

Wer do thy lie the ruling heart!
Loving those who havnt been loved,
Yet caring for those who havnt been cared,
With a dream it marches on
Only for those who dream so long.

I am my own puzzle..unsolved

Friends are the touchstone of our life. They reflect the real you and many times the reality that they reflect back puzzles you. This is what I felt when a friend of mine asked me a simple question - what do I think my objectives in life were?

Having scored half past a century, I was smug in my comfort zone that I have reached where I want to and the remaining life is just to be lived off the brownies that I have already earned. That is when this poser from a friend came. Sitting back, I reflected on the so called brownies in my kitty. The more deep down I went, the more I realized the transient nature of our objectives in life. The more you garner, the more appears necessary. The playing field never has a definable boundary. That is when I begin to feel that the actual playing field is not outside in the physical world that surrounds me. It is inside. The more the heart craves, the larger the field becomes.

So do I become a Buddha? Give up 'desires'. Stop moving and the field ends there. It is nice to imagine that the mind (and the heart) could be frozen. Like Osho says "be still". Being still is not a product of the control that we have on our mind. It is rather the awareness that we have no desire to control. To be in control is an acknowledgement of desire. It is also an acknowledgement of fear - the fear of having to face the unknown which by controlling we want to avoid encountering.

All our life we try to control things around us. In reality, it is the desire to feel secure in the environment that we feel we keep under our control. Fallacy though it may be, for the forces of nature and those around us exercise larger influence over our life than what we think we control, we still believe that we are in charge.

If that be so, then what objectives do I have or should I have? To control or consciously let go? MDQ - million dollar question. There is an interesting line in the song by Olivia Newton-John:

If you love me, let me know.

If you don't, let me go.

I can take another meaning

of a day without you in it....

Though the song may be on a romantic note, the deeper meaning is worthy of reflection. Let go of control for in essence we own nothing.

Coming back to my friend's question...well, the debate is open.

   

Strange Are the Ways of Krishna

There have been a variety of teachers, mystics and messiahs in the history of mankind. But none like Krishna. It is immaterial whether he actually lived or not. Two thousand six hundred years have passed since Buddha walked the earth. Two thousand years since Christ came. One thousand four hundred years since Mohammed (PBUH). None of us have actually seen them. Whatever we know of them is from the writings of somebody or the other. To be honest, it does not actually matter whether they lived. What is material however, is the relevance of their teaching to our life and our faith in what they said. So, let's get back to Krishna.

There are three aspects, incidents and sayings of Krishna without understanding which, whatever else we may talk about would be just stories or conjectures or both. Let us therefore talk about them one by one.

Scene 1: We will begin at the end. At the end of the war, Pandavas get installed in the throne and Krishna goes back to Dwarka. Many months pass and Kunthi becomes agitated by his absence. She commissions Vidur to fetch Krishna from Dwarka. Krishna accepts the invitation and sets out on Vidur's chariot towards Indraprastha. Through the journey Krishna finds Vidur unusually withdrawn and subdued. He queries him only to be told that the questioner being Lord of the Universe should know why. Krishna goads him to ask and eventually Vidur obliges. The conversation goes something like this:

'You are god. Had you just wished both brothers must live in peace, today we would have the entire clan alive. Why didn't you?'

'Since you know the complete sequence, Vidur, tell me what did the brothers desire?'

'Well, when Duryodan and Arjun came to seek your assistance, you made it clear that you will not take up weapons and fight. So, Duryodan asked you to give your army to him. Arjuna on the other hand, asked you to drive his chariot on the battlefield'.

'Did the brothers broach peace and seek my help to live peaceably?'

'Not at all. In fact, they both sought war and your support for it'.

'Vidur, can't you see that they obtained what they desired. Why are you blaming me for the desires of your heart? What you seek with the craving of your heart is what you shall attain'. Vidur understood.

Scene 2: In the course of exhorting Arjuna to give battle, in the Gita, Krishna makes two important statements:

‘There is no one I consider as worthy of my love. Nor is there someone that I hate’.

‘I have said what I have to. Now it is up to you to take it or leave’.

Both these sentences are addressed to Arjuna, whom the world considers as the foremost of the disciples of Krishna. We of the world can never imagine the two without each other. However, Krishna by his cited statements, makes it abundantly clear that it is not so. Further he says:

‘I do what I have to, irrespective of someone's likes or dislikes. In order to ensure that the universe continues to function the way it does, I must continue to do what I have to’.

Scene 3: Earlier in Mahabharata, when Duschasan attempts to disrobe Draupati, she makes feeble attempts to resist him. She then goes on to appeal to the good conscience of Dridrashtra, Bhishma, Drona and the like. Finding no help, she usurps her husbands but finds them incapacitated by their deeds. After having exhausted all options, she throws up her hands in surrender and cries out to Krishna. He instantly saves her honor.

When we sequentially arrange the lessons in these stories, we come to know why Krishna is like no other. Let us see the lessons:

1. There is no special devotee or hated opponent. All are equal in god's eyes.

2. He will neither change nor alter what is ordained in the universe. Nothing will be changed for anyone so as to advantage him or disadvantage him.

3. You will attain what you seek. There is nothing that god will grant you separately and beyond what you desire.

4. If you really want Him to do anything, then you have to completely give up your ego, honor, wants and everything. Only when you completely surrender yourself to Him, He will take you in. When that happens, He will possess you so completely that you will be left with none of your former self.

Such are the ways of Krishna. Other messiahs asked you to believe, to pray, to forgive, to love and to renounce. Krishna actually leaves everything on you. You do. You desire. You attain.

Strange indeed are the ways of Krishna.

What is Work?

What is work? Well, this appears to be a funny question in a world where we chase our CTC all the time. I have no answers. But, in case you have the time, please read on:

 On Work
 Kahlil Gibran

You work that you may keep pace with the earth and the soul of the earth.
For to be idle is to become a stranger unto the seasons,
and to step out of life's procession, that marches in majesty and proud submission towards the infinite.

When you work you are a flute through whose heart the whispering of the hours turns to music.
Which of you would be a reed, dumb and silent, when all else sings together in unison?

Always you have been told that work is a curse and labour a misfortune.
But I say to you that when you work you fulfil a part of earth's furthest dream, assigned to you when that dream was born,
And in keeping yourself with labour you are in truth loving life,
And to love life through labour is to be intimate with life's inmost secret.

But if you in your pain call birth an affliction and the support of the flesh a curse written upon your brow, then I answer that naught but the sweat of your brow shall wash away that which is written.

You have been told also that life is darkness, and in your weariness you echo what was said by the weary.
And I say that life is indeed darkness save when there is urge,
And all urge is blind save when there is knowledge,
And all knowledge is vain save when there is work,
And all work is empty save when there is love;
And when you work with love you bind yourself to yourself, and to one another, and to God.

And what is it to work with love?
It is to weave the cloth with threads drawn from your heart,
even as if your beloved were to wear that cloth.
It is to build a house with affection,
even as if your beloved were to dwell in that house.
It is to sow seeds with tenderness and reap the harvest with joy,
even as if your beloved were to eat the fruit.
It is to charge all things you fashion with a breath of your own spirit,
And to know that all the blessed dead
are standing about you and watching.

Often have I heard you say, as if speaking in sleep, "He who works in marble, and finds the shape of his own soul in the stone, is nobler than he who ploughs the soil.
And he who seizes the rainbow to lay it on a cloth in the likeness of man, is more than he who makes the sandals for our feet."

But I say, not in sleep but in the overwakefulness of noontide, that the wind speaks not more sweetly to the giant oaks than to the least of all the blades of grass;
And he alone is great who turns the voice of the wind into a song made sweeter by his own loving.

Work is love made visible.

And if you cannot work with love but only with distaste, it is better that you should leave your work and sit at the gate of the temple and take alms of those who work with joy.

For if you bake bread with indifference, you bake a bitter bread that feeds but half man's hunger.

And if you grudge the crushing of the grapes, your grudge distils a poison in the wine.
And if you sing though as angels, and love not the singing, you muffle man's ears to the voices of the day and the voices of the night.